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I miss my family so much, or some sense of it in my daily life. Whether Im being directed to the right path or not because i feel lost amidst the hustle and bustle of work; which only provides means for me to survive.

Waiting for things to turn around takes so much patience and perseverance; hoping everything would pay off.

Wishing I could further enhance what I know and figure out what I dont know, which is a lot!

I hope when I reach 30 I would achieve further success.

I keep fighting the idea of a relationship or dating for 9 months now because everything I believed in which is what I tried to be wasnt good enough... I provided financial support, emotions, sexual desire and yet I was taken for granted... and then I got cheated on.

By then I figured every efforts I do wouldnt get noticed.

Since that terrible heartache every urge, thoughts, emotions and feelings I have has been supressed.

I dont think I could be that vulnerable again.

Although I still wish I could grow with someone and all that crap... LOVE is something hard to believe in. Love has been made pretty but its synonymous to LUST.

It's you being used over and over and when theyre done with you. You'd be out of the side walk in no time.

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